We’ve updated our Terms of Use to reflect our new entity name and address. You can review the changes here.
We’ve updated our Terms of Use. You can review the changes here.

Proud and Heavy Dreamer

by Kathryn Pallakoff

supported by
/
  • Streaming + Download

    Includes unlimited streaming via the free Bandcamp app, plus high-quality download in MP3, FLAC and more.

    Psst...We suggest choosing one of the “Audiophiles and Nerds” formats to download. They sound better and the recordings are hi-fi, so we'd love for you to hear them that way!
    Purchasable with gift card

      $8 USD  or more

     

1.
“Oh it’s hard down in this hole.” Said the rabbit to the toad “It ain’t nothing like it seems Like the rabbit in your dreams.” “Yeah, I know just what you mean.” Chorus: No one ever tells you No one ever tells you To smile at your loss Cuz each one brings Another toss Of the coin You’re the one who changed my world You’re the one who changed my world “Well I’ve got warts upon my back. And today I got attacked By my lily pad And try to spend all day Eating flies Lord my mouth is f*****g dry.” Chorus: No one ever tells you No one ever tells you To smile at your loss Cuz each one brings Another toss Of the coin You’re the one who changed my world You’re the one who changed my world
2.
You’re the American Astronaut You can shoot me to the moon You’re black and white and leather bound I smell the jet-flame fuel and feel your heartbeat pound Chorus: And the only sounds out here Are fearless notes And tearless nights We’ve left the ground, we’re almost out of sight. Strap me in and make your rocket fly. We won’t come back till all the wrong we’ve done is right. Hot night. Space bar fight. The only rule is you can’t bite. Empty glasses, loaded glances. Won’t you take me now to Mars? Cuz we’ve already come so far Chorus: And the only sounds out here Are fearless notes And tearless nights We’ve left the ground, we’re almost out of sight. Strap me in and make this rocket fly. We won’t come back till all the wrong we’ve done is right. You’re the American Astronaut You can shoot me to the moon.
3.
My breath below My heart above The head knows not What the Soul speaks of So goodbye my dove, goodbye. Chorus: Goodbye, goodbye My sweet, my light I'm at your feet While you're at flight Even when the sun has set It lights up the moon All the while that you are gone You will still hear this tune. Chorus: Goodbye, goodbye My sweet, my light I'm at your feet While you're at flight Goodbye, goodbye My sweet, my light I'm at your feet While you're at flight If you come back I promise to show My heart above My breath below Goodbye my friend, my song Chorus: Goodbye my love My sweet, my light I'm at your feet While you're at flight Goodbye, goodbye My sweet, my light I'm at your feet Why are you at flight?
4.
Maybe 03:16
Maybe you’re Adam Maybe you’re Eve Maybe I’m your downfall Sometimes it seems There’s too much sin But kindness always wins Maybe I’m poker-chips Maybe I’m dice Maybe you’re my jackpot Maybe a vice Gamblers may lose But luck always is near Maybe I’m water Maybe I’m dirt Maybe you’re my sunshine For whatever it’s worth Romantics may lose But love is something You choose Don’t disappear Love always is here
5.
Enormous Yes 02:22
“On me your voice falls as they say love should, Like an enormous Yes.” (P. Larkin) “Your love doesn’t know its majesty Until it knows its helplessness.” (Rumi) Don’t be afraid, come away with me Pocket of dreams, starlight and glitter The feeling’s in me. It was there all along It’s got nothing to do with you And I want you You’re a dream, you’re a dream, you’re a dream I don’t need you Things are not what they seem You’re afraid, you’re afraid, you’re afraid Stop pouring your fears into me Go away, go away, go away Till you can be fully here with me We’re the same, we’re the same, we’re the same Stop playing a game with me What a shame, what a shame, what a shame Cuz I know you’re in love with me “On me your voice falls as they say love should, Like an enormous Yes.” (P. Larkin)
6.
Big Bang 04:49
blue-green vase candle light cloudy night flame flickers neighbors bicker wax drips shadow on the wall trying to recall concentric rings in and out dancing -------- disappearing and they do always just disappear disappear hollow vs. shallow faded hand faded man sea-foam colored trees crying leaves they're more use to the dirt and the ground consoles with spring Big Bang cosmic flames black hole -------- gravity hydrogen when did time begin? will we still be friends? electrons protons particles and waves -------- crystalline days subatomic quarks magnetic force E=mc2 what's the score? what's it for? don't you need me anymore? -------- heart sore heart tore won't I see you anymore?
7.
When you were young You cried all the way to school Mom said some people are cruel They’re frauds and they’re fools But darlin’ don’t let that stop you Now, you’re like the dawn You’re here And then you’re gone You’re like a star you’re so far away. Chorus: And I’m sorry for the way People treated you today It’s not right I’ll tell them so We’ve got such a long way to go Now you slip past my smile Wrap yourself in arms of jewels Wishing they were arms Of someone who could save you Oh I wish I could save you Chorus: And I’m sorry for the way People treated you today It’s not right I’ll tell them so We’ve got such a long way to go We stood in No Regrets Hotel Across from Farewell Angelina Café Baby, love will save the day But first you gotta get out of its way And the rainbow’s end has no gold It’s made of stuff that can’t be sold Still you’ve been looking for so long For something to believe in Oh I wish you could believe in me Chorus: And I’m sorry for the way People treated you today It’s not right I’ll tell them so We’ve got such a long way to go
8.
Easy 02:57
You wasted all my time but not my love I may not be your speed, but I’m still your dove Nothing’s lost that rises above Try to tell me your heart didn’t soar When I rode you on my wing, singin’ us through the downpour They say men love you if you’re hard to get But my heart’s on my sleeve and I bet you won’t forget How I melted yours and swam through it like a deep deep deep deep pool I may be easy but I’m no fool.
9.
Cosmic Altar 04:01
Sunrise walk to the railroad station Broken tracks to the next destination Waiting’s not a game for the fragile at heart It’s for those who like to gamble And need fodder for their art. And you don’t have to wait for me You don’t have to wait for me You don’t have to wait for me I love you so I set you free Blue-green sky and the pearl-gray sea Tell the story of disappearing me I don’t have to wait for you I don’t have to wait for you I don’t have to wait for you Sticky things and crazy glue They can hold stuff down but they can’t hold you through Dark nights of the soul Contemplating what you’re due We don’t have to wait for us We don’t have to wait for us We don’t have to wait for us But I’m still not hopping on that crowded bus Of jaded souls and non-believers I’m a proud and heavy dreamer We may not wait, but we won’t falter I’ll meet you at the Cosmic Altar
10.
Radiohead played by the bed And you mouthed, “I’ve given all I can. It’s not enough.” You shine like a crescent moon Chorus: Unicorn scars You gave them to me Unicorn scars It’s a long story Unicorn scars I think I’m ready Gainsbourg played on tape cassette While we shared a cigarette You don’t want to give up anything Chorus: But unicorn scars You gave them to me Unicorn scars It’s a long story Unicorn scars I think I’m ready Unicorn scars To forgive you I forgive you I forgive you
11.
Liquid Sound 04:29
I hung around too long After all the other girls had gone But your strings cast a spell In your harmonic web I fell Maybe I’m the fool Betray me like your sacred prostitute I’ll be a martyr to your muse I’ll give you something to lose Just take me in your hold I’ll do whatever I am told You can divide me up in parts Because feet won’t break your heart I’ve been in your shoes A twisted knot that glues you to The hundred-thousand views Not knowing which to choose Take the door that you don’t know Past liquid sorrow and foe There’s no choice that can be wrong Ugly-pretty is still a song And either way I’ll sing for you And liquid sound will river you Either way I’ll sing for you And liquid sound will river you

about

All Words and Music by Kathryn Pallakoff
Produced, engineered, mixed and mastered by Christopher Haynes at emitter.

credits

released February 29, 2016

Kathryn Pallakoff: vocals and acoustic guitar on all songs; percussion on "Hard Down in This Hole" and "American Astronaut"; additional keyboard on "Unicorn Scars".

Blair Sinta (Alanis Morissette, Melissa Etheridge, Damien Rice): all drums.

Carl Byron: keyboards on "Hard Down in This Hole", "American Astronaut", "Unicorn Scars" and "Liquid Sound".

Christopher Haynes: all electric bass; additional guitar and keyboard on "Sorry for the Way" and "Unicorn Scars".

Geoff Pearlman (Jakob Dylan, Shelby Lynne, Linda Perry): electric guitar on "Hard Down in This Hole" and "American Astronaut"; vocal harmonies on "Psyche and Eros".

Rami Jaffee (Foo Fighters, The Wallflowers): Hammond B3 on "Sorry for the Way".

Paul Eckman: double bass on "Liquid Sound".

license

all rights reserved

tags

about

Kathryn Pallakoff Los Angeles, California

contact / help

Contact Kathryn Pallakoff

Streaming and
Download help

Report this album or account

If you like Kathryn Pallakoff, you may also like: